For some reason, my computer isn’t letting me title this blog post which is just rude but anyway! My hair is purple and shorter now!! I feel like that is the best way to start this because I don’t exactly know what I’m going to talk about but I know that I want to post more! I’ve been working at Vons in the bakery now for a month! Honestly, nothing to complain about, I really like working back there. All of the packaging and cleaning. I can write on cakes now, and that is kind of terrifying but it’s also pretty cool. There’s a new person in the bakery, her name is Cindy, and today is actually going to be her first shift alone, and since I have to go to Vons anyway to get some medicine for my dad, I figure I’ll stop by and give her my phone number if she wants it. As fun news, I don’t work today or tomorrow, and I’m off Saturday. Tuesday, Nick and I are going to go shopping for clothes that we might be able to wear to Sandra’s wedding on Saturday!! In interesting news, in the past two weeks, I’ve had three people come out to me. which, A. is interesting timing that they all come to me at the same time and B. fricken awesome that people feel comfortable enough with me to tell me things that I know for a fact they haven’t told other people. As some not-so-fun news, I am thinking about dropping out of school again. I don’t think I want to have any classes next semester. It just isn’t doing it for me and so it really just feels like a waste of a lot of money. If I am not in school, then I could work more and make more money. If I’m being honest, the only reason I decided to go to school this semester, was because my dad was convinced that if I wasn’t in school, then we would lose our food stamps. I also very much want to visit Chuck and Christy, I miss them and their house and their cats and I do have a lot of things at their house from college. I very much need to get out of my house. I am tired of my dad looming over me 24/8. (yes that was on purpose and not a typo) I think my first step would be getting my own bank account that he can’t see. Then I can figure out my phone bill and pay for car insurance. I have a feeling if I do this, then he won’t let me drive the car anymore, so I wouldn’t actually need to pay for car insurance. I am sort of in a pickle because I really want to get out of the house, but now Ally lives there too and I do not at all want to leave them alone with my dad. I think that it might be a good idea to just stop going to school and focus on work because that would give me more money to work on things that I know I will need. Maybe I’ll start saving up for a car? If I get my own car and insurance and bank that my dad can’t see, I could go where I want when I want and not feel like shit about it. Then I could picture me actually being able to move out, whether that be out with Omega or to my aunt and uncle’s or maybe with Dawn. If I were to live with Dawn, I could still be close enough to home that I could drive dad to doctors appointments and things when he needs because honestly, I have absolutely zero issues with that because I know you need people sometimes to drive you to that because you aren’t supposed to be driving after certain medical things and you shouldn’t have to go in there alone. I also very much miss my brother. I forget when he is off work and I want to call him but it doesn’t seem to be working. Besides, he doesn’t even answer my texts. Dad says it’s because I shouldn’t be texting him while he’s at work because he won’t get them, is actually just bullshit because if the messages go through, then when he checks his phone after he gets off of work, he could respond! I’m upset that my favorite people are so far away. All I want to do is spend time with my friends, hang out, go places with them or stay in and hang out, but I can’t because we all live in different states. Distance is hard. I think that’s all I’m up to writing today, we’ll see when I hop on here next!